So, I deleted all my previous posts. They were all about dieting anyway.
I want this blog to chronicle the positive things in my life. Because there really are so many. I am not blogging to share with anyone. I don't think anyone really cares...at least I don't expect them to. I honestly just want to focus on and log all the joy in my life. As a frequent affirmation of what I have and where I am.
You know all those books, songs, movies, poems and plays about love? I used to think they were just humanity's collective, wishful thinking. I believed we could "love" each other and we could get along and be fine but the kind of love that hits you like lightning and makes you weak in the knees just couldn't be real...and if it was, it certainly couldn't last.
It actually is real. It's just not common.
And when you find it you have to really hold on to it for dear life, come what may. I found it on 1/21/2011. And I am never taking it for granted.
He makes me smile every single day. I still get those feelings...the little jolts of electricity when he looks at me, touches me, kisses me, or even just texts or emails me. Even after 620 days.
He's my Mr. Darcy. “The very first moment I beheld him, my heart was irrevocably gone.” “I must learn to be content with being happier than I deserve.” Ah, I love Jane Austen so...
I cannot even convey to him in words how happy he makes me so I certainly won't try to here.
I am happy. I am content. I am lucky. I am excited about my future. I am gratful he constantly makes effort to make me happy...when I am happy, he is happy. When he is happy, I am happy.
Hapiness is lovely, universe. I don't know why I was lucky enough to find it but I am so grateful.
Oh, I cannot wait until we go to Vienna next year! I miss Mollie and Vinny...and I am dying to meet little Elsie...my beautiful, soon-to-be future neice. Justin is dying to show me around Vienna. I guess the last time he took someone to Vienna he didn't really want to be there with her. I can't imagine spending all that money (and he had to pay for everything) on someone you weren't having fun with. I saw a few pictures of him during that trip...he wasn't having a good time at all. She was all smiles but his eyes were weary and closed down.
My goal is to make sure he has the best time ever...to let him show me everything there as he's been saying he wants to...to pay my part without expecting him to pay for everything...to take pictures with his eyes shining with happiness...to help my future sister and give her some rest...and, of course, to finish my first half marathon. It's going to be amazing!
I love being in love.
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